I could sleep forever ....and cuddle cats

Saturday, 10:15 pm.

Just did a few excercises... i still need to lose a little weight ... the diet plan from my doc never works on weekends *roll eyes* ... i am very disappointed about myself ... joghurts as much as my eye can see and my stomach can carry ... eeek !

Yesterday was Susanne's Birthday. She turned 43. We were a small group of 6 people which was very pleasant. I was the youngest among them. But it was very funny. esp. with Susi's best friend Kirsten when we later made jokes together about the fact that Susi used an electric heating pad in summer (!) and fell asleep. When she woke up she had brand marks over her whole leg ... well... she wasn't seriously injured but this story amused us very much yesterday.
I stayed with her over night. Went to bed around 1.30 am i think. ...had a cigarette ... (eeek) but tasted better than my dusted tobacco lol.

anyway, i woke up around 4am and realized Susi and one of her guests (Christian) were STILL babbeling .... i fell asleep again thought "okaaaaay....!" .... i woke up again aroung 6.30 am ... and heard how they said good bye to each other. Yes you heard right, her last guest left the party around 6.30 am !!!

I cuddled much with her Cat called "Lifty" a Korat. ...my dream cat, seriously. But so expensice. They cost around 700 Euros.... ! Her friend (who was also there yesterday) breeds them. Here is a pic of one of those Cats:

I got up (had to go to the potty anyway) met her on the field, looked at her, said she was mad ...lol. Okay, now this continues: Susi goes to bed around 7am. I was still awke. But then we babbeled for another 2 hours !! WEIRED ! Then Susi fast fell asleep. I also slept for another hour, then left the house , went to the stores to satisfy my joghurt addiction.... *cough*

At home here i later put on the Dresden Dolls Album. Very beautiful, love that one. ... Around 1pm i fell asleep again until 3 pm .... phoned to natalie and my father .... told him the news about my plan to travel to the US... I think he is a little afraid of the fact that i will travel alone there.

I am currently listening to "Kidneythieves - Before i'm dead" from the Queen of the damned Soundtrack. LOVE the song. The movie ....hmmm.... well... yes .... ahem .... watched the movie when it hit the cinemas .... but not the best vampire movie i've seen so far. ...Speaking about Vampires: Some bats are flying outside. I had the door to my terrace open and feard they would fly inside ... ohhh....

Back to school

Thursday, its after 5pm. I just finished eating my self-made Pizza. ...I again feel so fat, urgh .... and i am a little milk-rice addiccted lately ... oooohhhhh...

My first school-week so far: On thuesday the technics and us (the designers) became one class because we were only 14 people, the boys only 12 or so. Too less to form a class ... And now FO135 is formed ... It's the 3rd shedule in 4 days .... and it still sucks !

Mostly lessons finish at 2.15 pm ... means i am home around 3.30 pm !!! the day is almost over ... especially when you have a little housework left and don't forget the homework ...

German lessons were okay. ... In Graphic-Design i realized it will such a boring year. My teacher babbels EXACTLY the same stuff like last year ... eeeeek ! *SIGH* .... Plus: Sorry the quality of my shedule is spo bad ... The last 2 lessons on monday mean: History/Politics. With Femme Fatal Mrs. Reher. I love her and her way to teach lol ... she was also there for me ion the past when i needed her and was very sick. She almost cared about me motherly ...

The best subject for today was defenitely RELIGION !! I am really looking forward to the next lessons, and it is very sad to have only 1 lesson each week... My teacher Mr. Willems is such a cool and caring guy. In the past we also watched a lot of movies and analysed them in reference to religion. The movie "flatliners" for example when we spoke about Death & Life after death ....

The worst thing for tomorrow will be FRENCH !!! *cries*

... and i havn't heard from "my man" for days now, which is unusual and i really miss him much. But i think (and know) he must be very busy and exhausted from travelling... and i hope that we will phone soon. I am very excited and i am a little afraid that i could say somthing wrong or he wouldn't like me or whatever ....

Oh!!! You (f*cking) pretty things !

Ok, sitting here, it's morning, 6.36 am. Still listening to the Labyrinth Soundtrack (cheers me up). ... and i really need this now. In a few minutes i will leave my appartment for .... SCHOOL.... do i have to add somthing else here ? let me see... i havn't been "really" in school since February (?) ... eeeek ! .... I was ill for almost 3 month and then holidays started.

I am also repeating this year of school cause of my (former) sickness. But it is ok, gives me more time for my artwork. My certificate was (still) very good. I used to be an A-B student ... so .... *griiin*. But because of my long absense i wanted to be a little better (i know, i kno, f*cking ambitious attitude. *roll eyes*) and give it a try this year again.

But today will only be the shity (but seems neccessary) paperwork. Also have to go to the doctor later to get my new meds.

I hope my new class will be nice to me (LOL). But i already know Isabella. She is a good friend of mine and we did a lot of (mostly Computer-) projects together back in my GTA (design) - years. ...Was always a lot of fun with her.

What goes seriously on my little bnerves is, having some lessons and classes AGAIN .... and AGAAAIIIN with the same stupid teachers .... i just need to think of my english teacher (he was "new" at my college last year) when he tried to teach us (i repeat, we are a Form 14, mostly around 20 years old, maybe a little older, some of us have had english lessons from Form 4 or mostly 5 on...) anyway, where he tried to introduce the 5 "NEW" words : Dragon, Swing, Love, Poetry and Castle to us ...

Yes, you read right. Then his question "What's a dragon" where he waited for any fingers to rise from us to explain what a dragon is ... sorry... this still makes me *roll eyes* and makes me want to crawl back into my bed ....

Currently the Bowie Song "Magic Dance" is on. Love this one. ...But i defenitely won't do any "Magic Dance" today ... My long-time Magic Dance ends today .... meeeeeeh...!!!!!!!!!!!

...what did he just sing ? magic JUMP ??? oh that fits more ... jumping off the building ....

Ok, ok ... just come from the potty and what else could destroy a woman's day ?? hmmm??? right, menstruation .... WHAT A DAY !!!! Now the barrel is full .... will come back here after the disaster.

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12.30 pm Ok, back from School, stores, etc.

The day so far was ok, just like i said: paperstuff, being sperated into classes....

In my class are only 14 people !!!! Which is absolutely cool in my opinion ! Also seem to be very nice and cool people. And we will have another Teacher in english. I am curious of what he will be like. Even don't know what he looks like ... maybe a "newbie" on our school, to ? We will see....

My shedule will change the next 1-2 weeks very often. But for tomorrow it says:

1. History (Hope we won't talk about the DDR again...*sigh* but cool teacher!)

2./3. German (coolest german teacher in the world!)

4. Math (with my classteacher, we call him "Steppi" -also the headmaster)

5./6. Sports - BUT the teacher won't be back until the autumn holidays end so 2 free lessons tomorrow (means: 90minutes SHOPPING LOL!!!). Last year i didn't do any Sportslessons because of my sickness. But the Sportstecher we have again is a pure DRILL INSTRUCTOR. No joke ...

7. PHYSICS - Me= Saying NO word !

Curious how Bloody's 1st day at the new school went !

marijke.

Wenn Hunde schwimmen...

...ist das toll und sieht auch meistens adrett aus,vorausgesetzt sie können es auch <.< *auf unsern Hundi schiehl* naja, Damit muss man leben..ein Hund der Wasser hasst und beim schwimmen das Maul aufmacht sodass er fast ersäuft *kopf schüttel*
Verkehrte Welt ;D
Naja,heute war ein 24 Sonnenstunden-Tag und das war klasse ^^ Und so wie meine Ellis sind,müssen sie das ja direkt ausnutzen und irgendwohin fahren wo die Wärme sie was nützt XD
Nun ja...und diesmal ist die Wahl auf unsern tollen Stausee die Bigge gefallen ;D
Und ich will euch diesen ach so tollen Stausee ja net vorenthalten hier,ne...;D

Hier ein Fotos von dem Platz wo wir lagen ^^


Von dem da kann Jamie sich ma ne Scheibe abschneiden XD Issa net süß?^-^


Und hier im Vergleich: Unser kleener schäbiger Köter *lach* Mit 3meter Zunge....

Und noch ein paar andere Bilder....^^



Naja,ich bin sogar was braun geworden *höhö* Und en 10(!!) jähriger hat mir hinterhergepfiffen <___< Wäh igitt xD *kälteschock bekomm*
Ansonsten war es klasse,ich hoffe das wir das nochmal machen,auch wenn ich totale Rückenschmerzen habe @,@

naja machts gut ^.~
bloody ^^ (august, 18th)

Bad Girl ...

Argh, after more than 2 years of not smoking i just had a cigarette again !!! And it feels AWFUL !!!! Argh, i hate myself for being terrible stupid sometimes .... I feel very sick right now 'cause of the cigarette ... but it is just right, i deserve it ... *roll eyes*

Just to quote a Madonna Song ("Bad Girl") here:

Bad girl drunk by six

Kissing someone else's lips

Smoked too many cigarettes today

I'm not happy when I act this way

Exactly, also i am not very happy when i act like this ... in the Video madonna also smokes a lot .... eeeek.

Yes, as you can read out of this i am BORED !!! Tried to make another sculpture and nothing but shit was the result ! And i don't feel like painting either today. The diet my doctor more or less forced me to do says i have had my maximum of calorie intake and means i also can't eat anything else now ... *cries*

Tried to call Susanne, my best friend, noone at home, tried to call my dad - nobody at home either. Means Bloody seems to be out also .... Waiting for "him" to come online or sending any email to me but nothing happened yet ... and it is almost 8pm here ... And no single AIM Buddy online today ! WTF ...??? AM I ALL ALONE TODAY IN THIS WORLD ???

The weather improved again. Yesterday was so rainy and cold again. Today the extreme opposite: Sunny and very warm again. Walked in the city just with a t-shirt, did not need my jacket today ....

Next week school will start again and i really don't want to go .... REALLY !

marijke.

Nine Inch "Snails"

tee- hee

today was very "usual". Had a good sleep and A LOT of (weired) dreams last night.
My doctor set me on a diet today *CRIEEEES* .... said i had gained too much weight in a too little time ... I knew it before but this is frustrating ... :(
Proves that i am a FATASS !!! We madfe a foodplan for this week which says i am allowed to have not more than 500g fries tomorrow ....

Anyway, i created a snails race today. Was very funny and i had nothing better to do:

After the Start:


I tried to make a close shot of a few of them. Seems this one felt a little too over-watched :


You won't believe it but it was so PISSED, that it got really agressive and tried to attack me. But fortunately i was safe behind my camera ! ( Thank you SONY !).

It isn't the first time a camera(wo)man was attacked ... eeeek, dangerous job. Thats why i want to be a film-director one day .... then it is not my buisness ... ;op

I chatted to my "sweetie" again a few hours ago. I am a little worried cause he promised he would be back in about 1 hour ... but it is almost 2hours after we chatted .. *sniff*
I wish i was with him. He is currently in Australia. ...And I feel ... loved .... and it feels great and beautiful. Really never thought i would feel like this again in my life.....




marijke.

Rainy Days....

Wie die Topic schon verrät macht mir das Wetter ganz schön zu schaffen. Bin eh so ne Wetterbedingte Person *seufz* Und es macht verdammt schlechte Laune wenn es draußen kalt und regnerisch ist...mir zumindest <.<
Aber ich hatte echt nen wirren Traum...der war aber auch irgendwie cool Oo Von so nem Wolfrudel was mich aufgenommen hat und wo ich langsam einer von ihnen wurde und so..war schon irgendwie cool. Sind eh sehr schöne Tiere...unser bekloppter Hund könnt sich da echt ma ne Scheibe abschneiden *lach*
Hach...*wolf anguck und schwärm*
Und laut Traumdeutung fühl ich mich angeblich von ein paar Personen bedroht oder so <.<" wer das wohl sein mag? ;D Naja steht eh auf jeder Seite was anderes...*schulterzuck*


Ansonsten war es heute echt boring *seufzü* Noch nich ma en Buch konnte mich aufmuntern oder begeistern....Außer das von der grieschichen Mythologie *nick nick* Is eigentlich ganz interessant aber bei den ganzen Götternamen und Kindern (Zeus macht ja echt mit allem rum was Beine hat XD) kommt man echt schnell durcheinander...
Aber ich finde es cool das sogar die Erde als Gott verehrt wurde...(Gaja) Und der Himmel und die Sterne und alles halt ^^ Find ich schon irgendwie toll...Irgendwie fantasiereich ^^
Aber für alles en Gott...naja auch komisch XD *lol*



Hier das Bild zeigt,wo Aphrodite geboren wurde ^^ Ich finds eigentlich ganz schön ^^

Und naja,mal sehn was ich morgen noch so mache...Hoffe diesmal was produktives *g*
Is ja ätzend so doof rumzulungern ey *dröppel*
Naja,ich mach dann ma besser fertisch hier ;)
*winke winke mach*
Naja,tümmeln wir uns schön im Regen rum *lol*
Aber er hat ja auch seine schönen Seiten ^.~



machts gut ^^
bloody ~

Viva Colognia! :)

Today me, Natalie and her best friend Bianca had a great day in COLOGNE !
I was filming a lot in Cologne cathedral - Found a a huge spider in there .... woa ! Maybe i will find a way to host the Clip , but not today, need sleep ....

Everywhere where you look, you see "Ratze" (our Pope)... He will hold a few divine services upcoming week whern there is "World's Youth Day". Would like to see him, too but i have a strange feeling about this, speaking of terror attacks ... and it will be overcrowded anyway .... so ...

I also found myself spending (or wasting ???) too much money again. Got a new trousers, a new top, a new handbag (dog shaped, lol, will post pics later), earrings, a photo book (compilation) of Salvador Dali's art (which i LOVE!) and got freaky f*cking cool and sexy underwear *cough* .... Anyway, Natalie (Bloody) and Bianca looked like twins, they often "accidently" buy (and actually wear) the same clothes:

Me with my new "handbag" (YES it IS a handbag!!!) ... :

Maybe about 1 hour after trying all new clothes on (in all thinkable cominations) *roll eyes* I phoned Susanne, a good friend (currently my best one) and had a long talk with her .... (again). it was really good talking to her again and its always interesting and funny talking to her, shes a *little* older than me (she is turning 43 next week) and very wise.... Can always ask her for advice and know i get a good one....

But this phonecall made me miss "him" online, got 2 short mails from him, saying he was online, the other one 1 hour later, saying he waited as long as he could and went off again ... *cries*. Hope to catch him online soon again, miss him like crazy although i know anywhere in my mind it seems a little ridiculous, i don't even know him personal and have so strong & massive feelings for him. .... *sigh*

Right now i am listening to the "Strings" CD of Björks Family Tree 6 CD Set/Box. Love it ! Also the design of it. And the 5 mini-cds are just too cute:

Its after 10 pm now and have to get up a little earlier tomorrow 'cause me & my family are going to meet up to go to the parish fair tomorrow. I also planned to visit my grandmas again. Havn't seen them for ages now it seems.

And talked to my father recently again about the fact, that there is his old Porsche 914 in metallic-blue in our garage and in his 2nd one (also a Porsche 914) just in yellow in my grandma's garage. Both old, ancient and they need to be fixed if you wanted to bring them back on the street. Its so sad that my dad has almost no time to repair them..... Esp. to drive to my grandma always where is the yellow one, which he said is in a better condition as the metallic-blue one.

My dad still owns both of them. When we were children he always said i would own the yellow one when i am older one day, said my sister would own the blue one.

I always, even as a child LOVED the yellow one. This ^^ is a pic of a similar one. I also love the colour.... i begged my dad to fix and repair it one day that i could drive it .... one fine day ...

.... marijke.